weird illness..es

first there is my godzilla- mother of all pimples- acne attack right at the tip of my nose.

which resulted to my first visit to a dermatologist. (and in one fleeting moment, i actually considered working as a dermatologist, but then, totally discarded the idea 10 seconds after...)

which resulted to 1 week of doxycycline... imagine... a mere pimple (yup... it's only one... a BIG one) causing 1 week of antibiotics!

then my worsening vertebral condition... i'm talking of course about my scoliotic back...

then... these juvenile rheumatoid arthritis thing... which later on was re-diagnosed as
which made me afraid because gout in children and adolescents is rare.. and may usually be caused by a more severe underlying condition (possibly renal disease!)...

i mean... wow... what's up with my body?

does this mean i'm gonna die young?

because if i am, well then it's time for me to move my ass off of all these trivial negativities surrounding me, and start appreciating my existence more.

ang morbid ko naman.. but it's kinda hard for a hypochondriac like me not to take these kind of things seriously...

god.. just please... whatever your plan for my lifeis , just make me wiser, and stronger and... uhm... i guess... BETTER in dealing with this so-called life...

because right now, considering all things, i'm just not that ABLE TO LIVE efficiently...

ok?