hai... be contented na lang ui.

lately, i find myself always dreaming about what will happen to me in the future (question lang: do you dream about your past?). i mean the immediate future. tomorrow or next week future.

for example, there's this long test in say, chem.

whenever i review for this test, i cannot stop myself from having this delusional periods where I imagine myself getting overtherainbowskiesareblue results for this test.

yes. it is good to dream. it is a human necessity to dream. but when your dreams create a translucent fog that blurs your perception of reality (just like the one mentioned above), then i guess its time for that reality check to be deposited in your reality bank.

why can't i just stop dreaming and live the present the way it should be lived, that is, live it literally as the present. to stop connecting it with the future.

or maybe the real problem lies with my overambitious ambitions.

maybe i've set the bar too high. too high for my terribly small body and brain to cross, or even reach.

or

kumakalam lang talaga sikmura ko at wala na akong ibang magawa kundi mag-emote ng mga kawhateveran ng buhay ko.

aba, malay!